Monday, May 28, 2012

Holla At Ya Boy...

Dear Homeboy,

Just want to holla at ya for a second to tell ya thanks. I'm sure you already know what I am going to say but sometimes you just got to get it out.

Thanks for your son. He truly is a reflection of you. He has no opinion and is always positive. He never judges and is always east to talk to just like you. He is the perfect example of what being perfect is. You two really make a good team. I don't know how I would have made it this far without the sacrifices each of you have made. I am forever grateful.

Thanks for this wonderful life and opportunity you have given me. Everyday is not promised and each day I have on earth I am so grateful. With all that happens in this world and this life I hold on to your word and look forward to life after death. You keep a brother on his toes with all the ups and downs but I feel ya though. Gotta keep me honest and strong on ya word because it is easy to get distracted. It is easy to lean on what ya friends, homeboyz, homegirls, and everybody else try to feed ya. They will tell ya everything you want to hear and not the truth. The biggest lesson I've learned is that people will fail ya. They will use you for a period of time then throw ya back to the wolves. Good looking out and always being there for ya boy.

You really know how to have a good time and over the past couple of years my life has been filled with many good times. Living this life or "YOLO" as everyone says these days is amazing. It can get out of hand sometimes and I know that as soon as something goes wrong  "Lord help me" comes out of my mouth or "I promise I won't do it again" but please know I'm coming from a genuine place. We all fall short and I'm no different. I know it is by your grace that I am saved and I pray that you bear with ya boy as I continue to walk with ya word, fight the principalities of this word, and strive to get a better relationship with you.

Thanks for cleaning out my closet and preparing me for something greater. I can be so attached to things of this world that if it wasn't for you and ya cleaning service I probably would still have a room full of mess. People, places, and things that have no purpose or add anything to my life have been removed directly or indirectly and for that I say thanks and what a relief. The only problem is waiting for what is next. Is it someone or something that is coming that is going to blow my mind or is it your way of reminding me to be faithful and hold on to your perfect word? Whatever it is I'll be waiting.

I could say more and it I still wouldn't be able to thank you enough for all you have done and are planning on doing. I hope I'm not rambling or anything like that but I know you know my heart. As usual thanks for being my homeboy... There is none like you!

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

The Three Amigos

I have come to the conclusion that in this life you don't have friends. I believe that the word "friend" has become an over used word with unreachable expectations. Many times we refer to people as "our friend" and really don't know what a true friend is ourselves. Over the past couple of weeks I have tried to put my mind around what is a friend and who really are my friends. In the end I believe  that you will only have a few that will stick closer to you than any brother.

I believe that there are three type of people who you will encounter in this life. I probably am complicating things (Over the weekend I found out that I do that) but I believe that through experience you begin to develop your own interpretation of things and understanding your friend is no different then living.

There are people who want to know you. These people could really care less if you live or die. They really don;t see any good or bad in you. What they see in you is the moment. "What ever you bring to the party" people are what I like to call them. Have you ever went to a house party and didn't know anyone but the one person who invited you? It feels like a movie or something. You walk in, get introduced, and then wait to see who is going to say something to you or who you are going to say something to. It becomes a game of some sort... just for the moment. After the moment is gone so are they. Never to be seen or heard from again unless another party comes up and they remember that you are good for a round or two of Patron shots.

People who know you are a little different. This relationship/friendship has a little bit of emotions put on it. These people care about you. They marvel in your success and comfort you in the time of need. This is tricky because a lot of times these people feel like they know you enough that you owe them something. Over time these people feel obligated to be around you with you more often then not. The "we cool or just hanging" especially with women becomes a confusing conversation because it tends to end up that somebody wants more. They want to be in a different places regardless of if you want to be or not. People who know you may know you a little bit to close for comfort and use those things to get an advantage on particular situations. They get to know you well enough to use you for what you bring to the party but then  care enough to scratch your back so your can scratch theirs.

Last but not least is a friend. A friend is a brother/sister from another mother/father. These are people who unconditionally have no conditions or expectations of you. A "REAL" friend will take the good and bad that you have. You can argue with a friend and then buy them a steak afterwards. A "REAL" friend will tell you the truth not what you want to hear. A friend can hurt your feelings and you know why. As a man or women it doesn't matter how you categorize people what matters most is that you know who and what people are and know their true intent.

So in the end I guess you have to know who you are before you can really call someone your friend. They say a dog is a man's best friend. So I guess we all should go by dogs... or should we just buy a good blanket, a bible, a blow up doll, or a goat? #DatIshKray